I Can Only Imagine

I don't remember these photos from the wedding video he made, but I sure am glad that I found them on his computer today. I can't stop staring at the little boy. My heart would constantly be conflicted: I'd want to keep holding him tight - making sure he knows how safe and loved he is, but then quickly I'd pull away so I could look at him, studying every feature before it continues to change and grow, then squeeze and kiss him all over again - those lightly freckled cheeks and perfectly stuck out ears. The girl is pretty cute too. =)

Our Baby

I know these next couple of years are supposed to be husband & wife time before a new life is created, but I don't get to see Michael very much these days. Especially now that he is working on a low budget indie zombie film with his friend Jared, who helped him out on Blood Widow. I am very happy for Michael - that he is getting paid side projects that he really enjoys, including sculpting, molding face casts and painting fake bodies. I enjoy my 911 job very much as well, but I miss spending time with him.
I began thinking about all the times we were able to spend together during Full Sail (photo by Ryan Walker, November 2009) and the frequent vacations we would take to Birmingham & the amusement parks. (However he did ask me the other day when we were going back to Typhoon Lagoon!) I even watched part of a Howard Berger Make Up Tutorial DVD with him this morning and felt guilty during my long shower for "wasting my opportunities". Unfortunately, he is in serious "Movie Mode" right now. I enjoy hearing him talk about what he is working on - and all the new ways he is able to accidentally injure himself (ugh, boys). But I am unable to discuss the future with him without him getting stressed. So on top of not seeing him, I feel like we aren't able to talk about much other than work.. But I know that there is so much more amazement to look forward to!

I've been trying to take advantage of my free time with Sasha, like taking her on walks (which can be very difficult when every other person is walking their dog at the same time and she turns into a vicious beast!) and snuggling with her more on my days off. Yesterday my "Mommy Mode" went overboard when I bought Sasha an 18-month Onesie (which I later de-haired and returned this morning). It didn't look as cute as I was hoping for. There was a small orange cat sewn to the front that said "Purr-fect".

Spring Break Reflections

It wasn't my Spring Break, it was Lindsey's, but I wanted to post this semi-random bird photo real quick for Mommy because of that picture she really liked at the Tioga Art Fair last month. I couldn't get any good close up shots because I didn't have the correct lens (zoom) on at the time. And none of them are running with drips of water/splash beads being thrown from their feet claws. They were calm birds. I hope this will do!

(I had to throw in a beach Picnik sticker since their website is closing on the 19th!) Okay, time for a super scrub down before bed. I've been feeling gross all day. And I only did 400 jumping jacks.

Post-Lent Lent

I feel like I barely did anything for Lent. Yes, the whole "don't-eat-meat-on-Friday's... unless you forget.." (haha) is the easiest because I've had practice most of my life. I knew from the start that my 2nd chance at New Years Resolutions was a bit over the top. I wanted to suddenly change into who I want to be, like BAM - GO!

But figured if I gave up chocolate for 40 days, I would end up binging and that would only make things worst. For the most part I didn't buy scrapbook items. I can honestly say that I haven't been to Scrappy Boutique in 6 weeks & that is an improvement. There were more, but I think I will just break it down by the week of what I SHOULD start to do.. at some point.. WEEK 1: No computer/internet. (Aside from at work, of course.) WEEK 2: No spending money! WEEK 3: No eating out & No chocolate or candy.  More ideas, please. Otherwise, I may have to simply repeat them. // For now I will leave you with some simple photos to get you through this week! Today Michael and I dyed eggs. It wasn't as eventful as I was hoping for, but I still enjoyed the company during the short celebration..  & Spider found a home in my Marigolds.  I think I accidentally killed the rest of my plants because they are all falling over (they have really long stems without anything to support them) and wilty. But every time I checked their soil, it was all dry!.. (Polaroids) Sasha by some of my newer plants. & Jet Ski sign at Ormond Beach. It made me think of when Michael and I rented jet skis on our honeymoon at the Bahamas - that was sooo fun!

& the Award Goes To...

Michael Gore for Best Special Make Up FX on Gruff's Bridge!

A few months ago, Michael was told that Full Sail submitted our 35mm project into the Florida Motion Picture and Television Association. Today we stopped by Full Sail around 6pm (it was quite cool and windy out) to get photos of Michael with the award for "Best Costume". Unfortunately, the award stays at the school, but he was able to get a certificate that he now has framed next to his diploma. 

Mabel and Julie are also listed on the award as they helped out too. Mabel was Production Designer and Julie picked out the 1940's themed clothing for the young female actresses. Our 35mm teacher/producer, Andrew Campbell took the photo of Michael and I. (Possibly a good one for the fridge?)

For old references, here is a photo of Michael touching up some make up on Gruff, back in January 2011 - taken by Josh "Jasper" Behrens:

James Christopher Kelly

I very much enjoyed being able to spend time with Jordyn and James. I made sure to bring our T2i to Ormond beach to get shots specifically like this.I got these cute ones of James on Monday. (The photos may look a tad grainy - I had to use a high ISO, 3200, because he was moving a lot and didn't want blurry cuteness.. just clear cuteness!)

I look forward to the conversation (in a few long years) when Michael finally agrees that we can create a tiny new life together! I don't think "ready" is the right term because I don't think anyone is ever ready just because it is such a completely new/huge deal, but a very special one.

Thoughts of Home

I've been wanting to spruce up my work desk area a little to make it more personal. I did bring a few photos in the other day to show my trainer, Kristen, then let the wedding photo lean against my monitor within easy viewing distance. So last night I quickly hand-crafted this frame complete with stand.. two thin pieces of cardboard glued and taped together.  
Hey, it works!